Wow. The last 14hrs have been crazy in the best way possible. Last night, Corey and I had dinner with Officer Rob Nease. 3.5 years ago he busted us for some stuff that could've landed us in prison for 8-12 years. In that moment I thought my life was over. The thought that I was invincible was finally crushed. I remember looking across the driveway at Corey, both of us in handcuffs, wishing I were dead. But just like always, I blamed everyone else but myself. "It was Rob's fault. Screw the police!" - I said.
Rob said that he felt like he should give me a chance. He said he believed in me. I did not receive a felony that day and for that I am eternally grateful. In his 30 years of working Narcotics he's seen addicts recovering. He's also seen addicts die. He believed that I could be on a path of recovery one day and boy was he right. Today I owe a major part of being where I am today to that man.
This was another one of those spiritual awakenings I talk about. My life flashed before my eyes and I could see the big picture. He says that his ultimate goal in his work is to help the addict and watch them help the next addict who's struggling to find their way. I sat there in disbelief listening to the same officer who arrested me now telling me that he is proud of what we are doing to help others and how he wants to help us in any way that he can. I gave him a hug and walked out of the restaurant almost in tears, overwhelmed with gratitude. I could have sat there and talked to him all night!
This morning I went to make coffee and realized I didn't have any left. I'm the type of person that needs coffee to get my day going and I can become frustrated really quickly if not. I pulled up to the window at Starbucks and the cashier told me the lady before me had paid for my coffee. That frustration subsided and once again I became overwhelmed with gratitude. PEOPLE ARE GOOD! I paid it forward and gave what my order would've cost to the lady in line behind me.
My life has come around full circle. I was full of hate for so many years and never would've thought I would be grateful for these types of things. I love this process. I want to give it to as many people as I can. To all those that have believed in me, thank you. I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
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